ever since 20, i knew life wont be the same anymore.
21 yrs - messy
22 yrs - new hope, new belief, new life
23 yrs - juz started... yet i dun hav much gd feeling abt it

i know
i can be too much at times
i can demanding at times
i am selfish at times
i am not careful with the feeling of ppl ard me
i push blames
i am too self-centered

and i thot as my age adds on,
the experience and knowings will improve me,
will make me grow.

apparently,
i am not.

i am disappointed in myself.
ever since i am 20.

e feeling is getting stronger
as i dun see happy face anymore
as i dun see sweet moments like previously anymore
as i see more of ur stressful looks
as i see more tears from u
as i see cracks between us.

it really hurts.

and pls call me retarded
as i really dun do mind reading
as i really duno wat can i do to make us better.

im guilty.
i should be guilty.
and i am guilty.

of neglecting your needs
of overseeing your desires
of leaving u behind

my love,
pls
shed no more tears for me

it hurts deep down.

can we work things out together?
guide me tell me scold me direct me
dun get lost in the mist,
lets walk into the future together,
hand-in-hand.