my blooody communication lecturer sux e greatest!! she's supposed to teach us on com, den she herself is not communicatin wif us, still dare complain abt us? PEGGY, can u pls wake up n shut e hell up?! -_- i dun wan waste my $60K lo... bloody hell...


topic of e day : CONTRADICTION

life is full of contradiction. for a time, u wan this, for another, u wan smthg else. smtms, u dun even know wat u wan... i'm a gd example of e it. often, i was asked wat i wan. its a gd qn cos i myself dun noe wat im chasing after in my life. i always say i wan this wan tat, but when im goin to achieve them, i let go. i back off. i run away.

run away. can e wind bring me away? bring me to smwhr where i need not to think abt anythg... i need a holi, a place of sunshine n beach. no electricity, no tv, no lightbulb. natural light by sun n moon ( hhmmm, reminds me of nite walk at pula ubin.. =p ) do nothing but laze ard e beach, read a novel, play wif dogs *bleahz* time to save $$

i'm losin trust in human... ooppsss.... i mean MEN !!

once, i was hurt badly. den i regain myself.... took some time... stubbon me... insist to remain sheltered, remain single. during ths blessed period, i was n i am still being pampered =] slowly, i took a step bck n halt, is it time for me to be on e road again? all e while, i've sittin along e road, watchin all e pairs struggle n tear each other... enjoying my role of audience ^-^

den when i feel like bein on road again, i was kicked. again. well, not exactly been kicked directly but perhaps hurt indirectly. aniway, who fuckin care? its juz fated tat i shd be wat i am now, solo n free.



to all : if u r single, do nt rush for someone, not anyone. u need nt to be any1, nd no changes to attract any1. ur fated one will com to u no matter hw u r, who u r. gd luck all my dear frenz *hugzz*

bu gan xin

bu gan yuan

y ? y?

y those i love dun love me, y those im nt interested keep popin up in ma life?

am i tat lousy? or im juz bein late?
i duno.

wat e fuck is love?


continuous life routine is killing me... slashing my youth... drying my emotions... twisting my alrdy disfigured heart...

hao xiang ku.. ku bu chu.. fuck..