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there is no ending i duno when can i let go of u feeling is fading yet it is still here
where am i heading? i duno.. wat am i doing? i duno..
perhaps.. im juz lonely....
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: been doin heart-breaking thgs sorry to all new yr coming... lets hope we all get a fresh new start ba *^-^*
had a roller coaster life this yr magical 20th yr of mine up n down gain n lost i walked thru all of u walked me thru bo, cat, jilly, lky, ni, ber, xiong, hy, da ting, mei mei, kl, qi 10Q for walking with me
loving u @ 3:45 PM
working working working
tats wat i've been doin all since holi
festive season im working all mid nite shifts
woke up in aftern bath go work rch hm in morning bath watch dvd slp wake up work
life goes on like this at least till sch re-open
gd n bad get to earn alot getting exhausted physically n emotionally duno when will i collaspe but i hope e latter could end soon
take care all my love ones miss u all ~~
ps. Z, pls stop hurtin urself n stop e 2nd job u need rest
bo, pls cheer up dun make me worry smtms, thinking too hard bring no solution juz leave everythg to fate k *^-^* *hugz* love u
ps 2 . silly jilly, love u 2 !!
loving u @ 6:18 AM
pls zavier stop smoking stop drinking stop takin pills pls
i dunwan this ending i dunwan u become like this i dunwan u do thz cos of me
i've done enough hurt to u stop hurting urself further
pls zavier
loving u @ 2:37 AM
im really sorry shouldnt start in e 1st place its an unfair equation
there is juz no future when e one in my heart is not u im really sorry for hurting u, for bringing u such harm n pain
hate me i really dun deserve all these frm u pls u r still young, dun stop searching. pls. u' ll find ur right one zhen de
pls, Z, move on n dun do stupid thgs becos of me no pills no alcohol no smoking pls
loving u @ 3:47 AM
miserable days miserable holidays
-lost- increasing my wrkin hrs reducing my slpin hrs reducing my thinkin hrs
:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: zavier, thx for bringing colour into my life u showered me wif love u made me feel smthg i nv had b4 u treated me like a princess thank you so much
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: bo i knw hw u feel a thin line between frenship & r'ship this is life =] no matter wat juz rem i love u
loving u @ 6:15 AM
it was already history watever happened watever tat hurt us, already gone...
lets not tok abt it anymre sori if i bring up e issue juz... let it go..
seeing urs n sm1's blog.. glad tat u2r happily tog, whether u2 r tog anot. at least, u r happy wif each other's company. well.. i hope this is wat u wan. i hope u guys r happy.
harsh words r out, n u shd know me well. i muz admit those words r strong, too strong maybe.. sori.
lets juz move on
treasure wat u hav now. dun let history take place again.
loving u @ 5:19 AM
out of curious i went to some1's blog by accident discovered a self-stabbing fact
so u lied to me we break n patch for countless tms u left me for some1 i cried i begged i struggled we got bck tog u said no mre such thg in future so we got tog thot evrythg bck to peace den today, only till today i realized i was cheated u 2 timed me twice thank you so much thank you so so much i trusted u in e 1st betrayal incident den u stabbed me again silently deeply
i thot i could still remain close wif u even at this moment but i was wrong
u dun deserve my any emotion any feeling anymore
GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE
loving u @ 6:24 PM
6 dec 05 : 1st day of exam eng pper woke up in blur state.. until i saw u keke yes, again.. saw u at bus stop althot a road across, ur cal woke me up till u board e bus, e cal really is energising *^-^*
7 dec 05: studied maths till 2036 in sch.. bloody packed wif x & y & z... i juz hate blooody maths~~
lky: sori, didnt mean to do tat outside e loundge will stop tat le. juz .. kinda stressed lately.. no mre after exam i promise, ok =]
cat: sori my deary... as i promised, no mre after wat i hav. *hugz*
bo: i miss u.. need a hug frm u desperately.. *muack*
loving u @ 10:46 PM
3 days in a roll saw u at bus stop in town delighted *^-^*
took bus hm.. not much conversatn thou.. as usual u sent me bck
our 1st contact after so lng.. den u whispered "move on"
eyes.. becom watery heart.. start bleedin thru a small hole
r u tat gd? i duno. r u worth it? yes u do. wats wrong wif me? i duno. am i nuts? yes i am.
am i wakin up, or juz fallin deeper?
loving u @ 2:07 AM
it has becom a habit tat i turn my head to e left n right, see if u walk pass
not much hope juz a habit now
was quite sian.. doin same stuff at wrk.. till u drop by, waved gd bye *^-^* refreshed!!
hyper all e way till i wnd work
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bo: im waiting for our diamond a belly diamond stud !! COOL !!
*hugz* love u too~~ :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
loving u @ 1:08 AM
was so surprise to see u on bus.. thot who kajiao.. purposely wan me squeeze inside e seat.. keke *^-^* turn out to be u
was raining.. e weather tat u hate.. yet u walk me bck
"im hungry.." "go supper lo.." YEAHIE!
so, we walk bck my hm, u wait for me to bath. den, we walk to ur place, drop ur stuff, got changed. set off for supper.
walked in rain, u held e umbrella all e way, not letting e rain worsen my flu.. =]
yong tau fu was sweet even w/o sweet sauce. hahaha *bleahz*
once again, walked in rain, u sent me bck ^-^ onli left when i wave gd bye at my door step *sweet*
so happy~~ thank you u ~~
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flu has got dwn. 10Q ber, no worries, i can still wrk ^-^ I am STRONG !!
loving u @ 2:12 AM
havin a combo meal now 1) red little pills for running nose 2) orange big pills for fever 3) borwn bottle of syrup for cough
total: S$24 free mbership for Heng's Clinic -_-
:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: suppose go manicure 2day end up rotting, slp-walkin at hm duh...
:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: an achievement after moved out: learnt hw to swallow pills OF ALL KINDS N SIZEZ
ma de......
loving u @ 4:35 PM
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