im allergy
allergy to u

poke abit..
already feel freaky..
or am i juz too sensitive?

haha
lame...

anyway
finally my research ppers r done
no mre slping at 4,5am
no mre slping for onli few hrs
finally....
can slp in peace

bo,
we pierce ourselves,
is to please ourselves.
is our decision.

we should not change ourselves plese any1.
no1 worth it.
if tat person dun like wat u r,
he/she is not our fated one.

love is not to change some1,
but,
love is to accept some1.

no rush into love.
n dun think too much.
if he dun like u cos of wat u r nw,
u'll get a better one in near future.

n above all,
i always love u.
*hugz*

havent really tok to u for awhile
u dun sound gd
disturbed?
stressed up?
sian?
wish i can help u
though my little acts may be 2pid
but juz to make u smile abit more

though we r wat we r now
still
i muz thank u
bringin me to this path of life
u open it to me
u guide it to me
10Q

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to all: ky is recoverin in progress
healthy
strong
thx for waking me up

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ppl come n go
u cant control them
but
memories r here, 4eva
onli u can decide they stay or leave
so, wats ur decision?

been doin these alot lately:
drink SUNKIST orange juice
drink ice water
drink bubble milk tea
drink mushroom cream soup
eat choco
eat potato chips

hmm... healthy lifestyle?
i duno...
juz wanna take gd care of myself.
dun wan let down my beloved frenz anymre
bo: i miss u...

ps. painted ALL my nails black
juz love black =p

ps.2 anione got recommendatn on nice strawberry choco ?
keke obsess abit recently.. lalala

belly pierced
no blood
no pain, but redden ur arm,
which i use to twist when e needle poke thru

cannot bend forward
cannot bend backward
cannot stretch my body
cannot eat seafood
cannot take hot bath
cannot touch e belly

yet
all is worth
for it is a gift
for me to rem e tms we spent tog
for me to rem e memory we shared

now
u back off
of wat reason?
i duno
dun wan to know
dun dare to know

its ok
i know e rules
e memories we share
e moments we spent tog
e little thgs we do
all well kept, in me

im still
juz a cal away
juz a street across
whenever u need me

in this complicated world,
i met e complicated u.

these 2 complicated souls do nt join as 1,
they juz met n walk wif each other.

not much to tok,
juz simply,
head on head,
hand in hand.

sharing a similar smile,
sharing similar vampire teeth,
sharing similar height,
sharing similar view on life.

we do nt meet evryday,
we do nt talk evryday.

yet,
i know u r juz a cal away,
i know u r juz a street across,
so do u.

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do not dare to commit for anythg,
do dare to owe anythg,
the future is unknown.
i dun care.

enjoy life.
tats all.
to all, to live is above evrythg.
sori for depressin previously,
recovered, no mre in future.
thank you all who hav stood by me.

silly.
i dun trust relationship anymre.
so i wun ask for one.
i myself cant compromise for one either.

juz this way lor.
a sms, a call, an online msg.
enough.
enough to brighten my day.
enough to make me smile for whole day.

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sori cat, dun angry le k =p
*hugz* so sorri cat.
wifey learnt her lesson le...

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so chiying, sj, u guys comin up on 29 issit? =]

great.
now everyone is disappointed at me.
pissed at me.

fine.
im fine.

picking up myself.
dunwan to let u down.
slowly, i will be awake.
giv me abit more time to be awake.
i will put myself together again, be e old me again.

zhen de.

no more drinking, no other obsession le.

in love.
wif u.
wif me.

yet i know i am no one.
no one to be ur anyone.
im too problematic.
im too confusing.

leave everythg this way then.
leave everythg on this spot.

lets juz treasure each other's company.
lets juz treaurse each other in our own way.

only u n me know why.

nothing is no longer important to us.

deliver me straight to hell
save me out from this dead body

unwanted

gender is no longer an issue, love has no boundry.
so is failure. when one is fated to be a failure, there is juz no way in correcting or saving one from it. when u r meant to be unwanted, u r. no matter by who, how, when.

crap... im lost...

less drinking...
shall invest in other kind of obsession...

thank you for ur patience, crap has come to an end...
so am i....

i know we do learn numerous lessons in life. i had many. n i'm sick of them. i drink not becos i wan to enjoy. drinking brings me no enjoyment, it juz helps me to shorten my worthless life.

happy halloween =]
finally i did somethg i long for.. DRESS UP !! tube top, short skirt, heavy boots ( Dr. Mar !!) n blood stains. really love my black nails n boots *^-^* photos will be up soon... pls be patient

went over aunt's place for dinner today. watch canto movie - " 1000 cups yet still not drunk" there r few lines i really like... nearly cry from e movie, not becos it is touchin, but i feel myself in thr.
" y do man only say i love u or i like u when they're drunk?"
"nv trust words from a drunk man, they r always not true, especially when e men r awake in e morning. "
" y do man onli tell me he likes me after he's drunk? am i really tat unacceptable?"

alcohol... down e throat.. down to my heart... make me drunk.. make me forget all e problems in reality..

**im getting tired more easily these days, im gettin back aches, im eatin less cos i wanna vomit easily.. when can i end my pain? end my life?**