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for once after so long
i woke up early for sch..
rch at 9am.. classes CANCELLED!!!
damn..
nvm i went hm
watched L word
took a nap
BLOODY HELL
i had a fucking nightmare
i was trapped in a room
wif all my unpleasant past pulling me
trapping me inside e rm
i got so freak out
i screamed... n they pull me stronger..
woke up in sweat...
n i mean real sweat...
i took a long tm to accept e fact
to accept wat i hav n wat i am now
n obviously
im still haunted by my past
i juz cant let go..
n perhaps
i cant really accept e facts...
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fate is really a funny thg
n its playing on me
juz when im in my lowest point
u appear
right in front of me
no prior contact
no nothing
u juz appear
n we tok
i feel better after tat
biased?
maybe... abit.. or alot...
anyway
i juz wanna say thank you
thx for appearing
when im at my lower slope
not onli once, not onli twice,
but many more times than that.
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ber, thx for e hug
*hugz*
loving u @ 2:37 AM
i know e rules of e game
i understd e rules of e game
n they r strictly to b followed
im sori
i went too much
i step over e line
i demand too much
i shall keep behind e line
in order not to b kick out of e game
i duno hw long will this game last
i duno wat wil it take to carry on this game
its doesnt matter
nothing matters
i will be here
juz like u r here when i need some1
this is e worst
but
this is also e best for us
loving u @ 12:54 AM
at 0317, on 270306
i ate half a bowl of dan-dan mee
cold bowl of noodle
wif a cup of warmed teh ice
my stomach stop drumming
my face start smiling
my heart is filling
loving u @ 3:40 AM
i use my eyes as camera
to cature ur pretty face when ur aslp
i use my arms as sensor
to rem ur temperature when im in ur arms
i use my heart as memorizer
to rem ur heartful wrds tat keep me goin
with e touch, e tempertaure n e feelin
i rem how u brought me to peaceful slps
i rem how u brought me to sweet dreamland
thx for being thr
loving u @ 3:35 AM
i love i hate i miss u always
loving u @ 10:43 AM
dun look back to e past
cos i hav too much
dun look into e future
cos i dun hav any
dun fall in love wif me
cos i dun even love myself
dun think of trusting me
cos i trust no one
dun insert me in any phrase of ur life
cos i duno hw long my life will last
dun ever think u can hav me
cos i only belong to myself
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thgs r happening lately
downs. all of them.
loved 1 is counting her last days.
r/s wif ur own blood is goin dwn.
body n mentality r givin way.
path to my dream is extending.
heart is emptying, hardening.
hopes r lifted n droppin fast.
direction is missin...
thus
i shall continue to walk
aimlessly
till i find my new destination.
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cat,
seriously,
go think abt e balance.
r u happy?
i believe u can get better than this.
*hugz* jilly n i will be here.
of cos she got her spider song to cheer u up =]
bo,
do tel me abt ur plans after U.
hk...
is makin me feel distant as time passes by...
loving u @ 9:27 PM
im 21
im living wif my housemates
i hav my full stretch of freedom
i deserve every fun n crazy moments
i dunwan wait till im old den regret
im playful
im crazy
im ever-changing
im not settling down
i am wat i am
ur attempt to change me
tel me tat its time for u to leave
accept wat i am
dun change to me to wat u wan
i hate compromising
say me selfish
say me freak
i am
loving u @ 2:35 PM
had a 25mins fight wif dad
screamin shouting yellin
fuck it la
im 21
y cant he let me go?
y cant me let me do wat i wan?
watever la
nothing goes into his ears
nothing
fuck it
i dun wish to speak anymre
loving u @ 1:29 AM
well..
apparently some1 is criticizing me
on my veri own blog
but
who cares
they hav complains abt me
pls come str8 to me
i welcome all negative comments
abt me or my life
no1 can push me down
i may fall
but i will get up
right in front of u
n stand stronger than any1 else
cat, dun worry
no point reacting to those nonsense ppl
*huggz* thx anyway
kekeke
we hav been MIA since after exam
we better get bck to sch b4 jilly screams~~
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oh...
bo, im goin bck hk in may
u goin ?
loving u @ 1:35 PM
hav to urge to blog
so here it goes...
topic of e day : TRUST
well
im sori
but i hav lost trust in human beings
due to my past experience
nah...
cant trust words anymore
or.. probably..
not tat extreme
thr r a few i can trust..
but of cos
i shall nt disclose their identities here
i cant risk them to b potential victims
^-^
so
lately
im been wrkin long hrs again..
nice
i like
$$$
keke
anyway
i need e $$
for my further studies ah ~~
loving u @ 1:25 PM
"the quickest way to change your attitude towards pain is to accept the fact that everything that happens to you has been designed for spiritual growth"
a veri meaningful line i found from dar's book
its specifically refering to me n my happenings
no
im not pickin it up again
i've learnt my lesson
i've moved on from evrythg
many MIA ppl r re-contactin me lately
i duno y..
watevr it is..
F*** care lo...
im happy wif i am now
dun try to change me
n u cant anyway
=p
bo, dun love ur hubby so much
leave some love for me
keke
sweet dreamz to all *huggiez*
FALL OUT !!!!
loving u @ 12:26 AM
 let me b black..
cat, u can b e white 1 =p
anyway e black 1 look very cool..
n LKY, stop pickin at e corners of e pics..
i can predict wat r u goin to say -.-
exams r over..
feels like nothing has happened
no stress..
hahaha
maybe im too ignorant..
maybe i shd spend more time on studies..
but then again,
they r onli MAYBEs...
^.^
family issues had more or else settled.
1 down, more problems to come.
well.. no rush..
i guess i can figure out solutions slowly.
loving u @ 12:05 AM
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